Friday, September 21, 2012

Ella's 3!!!

Happy 3rd Birthday to my sweet little girl. I can't believe shes three. Really time has gone by way too fast this last year. Ella is a fun loving and sweet girl. Ella has a very tender heart and is always concerned about others. When I am sick or Ethan, shes says that she will take care of us. She loves to be held and rocked. She has been going to gymnastics over the last year and continues to enjoy the mommy and me time. Ella loves her babies and working on puzzles. She is a great helper, always helping unload the dishwasher, dusting or cleaning up her toys. She is such a joy, most of the time:)  We will celebrate today with balloons on the breakfast table, making a pink cake while Ethan is at school, picnic lunch before heading to zoo, presents and dinner tonight! Tomorrow we head over to Kenny and Carries to celebrate Ella's and Daniels birthday together. Looking forward to a fabulous day!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


I have been away for away for a few months:) It was good to be away... However I have been wanting to post pictures and happenings on my family for a few weeks. Ethan and Ella are growing so fast and I love going back and reading old post. Well if I don't blog there will be no "going" back to read and see those sweet faces:)
We have had a busy summer and it really is hard to believe its Fall again. I normally love Fall and everything that goes along with it; sweaters, jeans, boots, hoodies, hot coffee, fires, windows open, leaves changing, cooler temps, football. It just seems that I am not ready to move into another season just yet. We have settled into a routine of preschool, bible study, awana, and gymnastics but still feel like I am not quite ready for Fall to move in or is it move on? Move on without our third child, our son. I often feel like something is missing as I pile us into the car or pack bags for the kids. My heart misses him, my soul longs for my third child. I know its Elias who is missing from our family. Another anniversary, another day, another month, another year without our baby. He has a part of my heart, my being that yearns for me to have him with us. I trust that everything works for Gods good and that His glory and goodness continues to flow out of me because of that trust. We hope for a future spent with Him and Elias. God is working on my heart to continue to take steps everyday toward Him, to deepen my trust, for my flesh to decrease and Him increase. Most days that is easy and others I struggle. Struggle with the whys and why nots, struggle with desiring to have a baby in our family and the fact we do not, struggling with the pain of my empty arms that can't be seen. That pain comes in many forms and range hourly, daily or weekly! The pain and loss seem heavy this week but I know that the good days are coming....Thank You Jesus!!!

Monday, September 17, 2012

First Day of Salem Pre-school 2012

Ethan and Daniel started back at Salem last week. They are going three days a week and they love it!!! Ella had a hard time last week with Ethan being gone. We are getting into a routine and I am sure she will start to enjoy this one on one time with Mommy. I thought about sending Ella and Salem asked me but I think I will hold onto her one more year:) The boys love going to school. They are great buds!


We enjoyed some much needed away time in August and September. In August we headed to Cincinnati for a long weekend. We visited the zoo, creation museum and the childrens museum. It was a hot weekend but the kids loved sleeping and swimming at the hotel. They keep asking to go back!
On Labor day weekend, which happened to be my 30th birthday, we took off to Pokagon. The kids enjoyed their first time fishing. It was so sweet watching Corey teach them. On Labor day I ran with my awesome neighbor Amy and two greatest sisters, Carrie and Amy, in the Blueberry Stomp. What a great way to start this new decade.

Summer 2012

We have had a busy and FUN summer. Both kids learned to swim on their own, well on their own by using a life coat, which is so much fun for mom:) We enjoyed many Friday pool days at Aunt Amy's, a few beach days and lots of outdoor play. Ethan is learning to ride without training wheels but feels much more at ease on the training wheels when riding in the neighborhood with the bigger boys. Our summer nights usually ended up with the neighborhood on someones driveway talking or dinner at the next door neighbors, the other Barnes:) We have been blessed with great neighbors and have a great friendship with them.
We also did some landscaping. We had tried to tackle this last year but never made it to actually planting plants! We planted a lilac tree in memory of Elias and have a small memorial area in the front. We have replaced the hanging basket with wind chimes which I LOVE. I am excited to see this tree bloom next spring!

Pokagon Girls Weekend

A few years back we (sisters, mom and I) decided that we would have a girls day/weekend instead of presents or parties for our birthdays. This was our second time going to Pokagon State Park. Its a great little park only about an hour away. There is shopping close by and some unique restaurants for us to try. This year we were in the middle of training for our first 10k and enjoyed running through the park. We missed our little sister, Allison, hoping she can join us next year! The plans are already in the works! Love my sisters and mom time!!!

March of Dimes 2012

Last year my sisters, Carrie and Amy walked in the March of Dimes walk to honor Elias. This year we decided to make it a team event. It was a great morning walking 3 miles in an effort to support the mission of the March of Dimes which is to improve the health of babies by preventing birth defects, premature birth and infant mortality. We had 26 walkers and raised over $1300.00!!! It was an honor to be able to walk in Elias name. We miss you baby boy!!!

Easter 2012

Easter was long ago BUT I have really wanted to post some pictures of my beautiful children and all that's been going on in our life. Despite it being five months ago...I remember being sick:( We colored Easter eggs at Carrie's new house on Friday night and by Saturday I was miserable. Corey took the kids to my aunts for an egg hunt and dinner. We enjoyed Easter Sunday with Corey's family and I was able to attend.