There have been times throughout life after Elias that I have wanted a shirt or a sticker or something showing my loss of my son. Something to acknowledge him, something for people to see and know how special he was. However I have come to a conclusion, really life changing conclusion. I do not need a sticker or shirt or sign. My son is in every detail of my life, it just happens to look different then the place my other children hold. He is with me, every day.